back
and making me know more again
finally
belonging in the thick of your presence
around
me wrapped tightly finally free
told
to die to myself never realizing it
meant
to give you control
fingers
wrapped around feelings squeezing
hard
until I couldn't feel
anything
using crisp terms like processing to
avoidavoidavoidmoveon
move on.
never
experiencing never surrendering
governing
the island of myself fingers
clumsily
fumbling with lids fitting
anger
loneliness bitterness sorrow
into
boxes pushingawayavoidmoveon.
knowing
the release of having managed
each
little piece myself savoring
the
word independent like a crown
and
not ever looking up at your
sweet
face until I felt you lift
it
off my head your gentle fingers
uncurling
tightened pains and smoothing out
my
crinkled pages turning to newness and
the
thick joy of hearing you constantly and
the
delight of seeing myself reflected in
your
eyes and knowing newly what it means to belong to
the
best mystery I have ever believed in
you
are the meaning you are the center you are everything
now
free to depend and dwell in you tired of
control
I never had in your
thick
presence
wrapped
around me
Beautiful
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