Update on me and the blog

"I SATISFY THE LONGING SOUL." -Psalm 107
Guys, all I can say is, I am so satisfied.
I am in a relationship with the one true God.
My life is bigger and scarier than ever before. I am growing up.
But I am walking into it with God, thinking only of today and how to love who is in front of me.
I am free. I am free! I am free and digging deep into who I am and who God is.
I'll give you the longer version later.

Also, changing the tone of my blogging of the past 4-5 years...
I am also planning on doing less processing here and more reporting, as in, my journal has been neglected and it has been negatively influencing my life. I'm a verbal processor, writing more than talking. Talking is easier, but I have found that I frame what I'm trying to work through according to who I'm talking to, framing it nicely so that they'll think well of me, and also thinking of who they are and how I'm speaking to them and how they hear me, their prejudices and background and past pain and buttons to push and topics to avoid.

These are all good things in a conversation. But I turn to mentors and friends to work through issues that I'm better off working out through writing. And to an extent I do that here on this blog, because I have some readers who are friends, classmates, family, professors, and other people that I think of as I write and I wonder what you think of me or how you will interpret my processing. This is also not bad. But I think this is a better place to come to after I've journaled properly.

I've lost something in my college experience and spiritual walk (synonymous) having blogged mostly and having abandoned my journal. I read through my journal occasionally, to trace the path God has taken me on. And it's very poorly done. Only in the past month have I been encouraged to journal deeply again like I did in high school, and stop going to people first when I should be encountering God through writing through my issues with Him.

So the blog will begin to feel different. Just know that I'm being more true to the way God created me, and that I'm much happier and healthier this way. And thanks always for reading.