1. I want to be part of a community of Christians, not part of a church. Huge difference. I wonder if it can be made to happen? Or does it not happen when there's only a handful of people who agree with you?
2. I would love to be married...I don't know if I'd want to be married like really young. I know as you go along it gets harder to have kids. Which I have to consider because
3. I want to have kids.
4. I want to live in lots of different places: by the Delaware river, in NYC, in Florida (?), in Austin TX, Seattle, and in places like South Africa and Israel.
5. I want to visit France, hopefully on a missions trip. And Haiti too. I'm actually saving up money to maybe go to Haiti. God said to go make disciples, not to maybe think about it and deliberate and put it on the back burner.
6. I want to run a shop...like a coffee shop that has open mic poetry and indie bands, and shelves of books, and soon-to-be famous writers crash on the couches in the back to type. If i realize I don't know the first thing about coffee, then it would just be a bookstore with the above. Or maybe a teahouse.
7. I want to have an awesome college experience...I want to make and lose friends, win and fail, laugh and cry. Etc.
8. i want to write a book. really bad.
9. I want to go on a pilgrimage, just to hear what God might have to say to me on one. maybe kayaking or hiking or biking somewhere.
10. I forgot to say I want a kayak...
11. i would like to be able to grow out my hair really long again. The last time it was long, I was 13 and didn't know how to take care of it, not to mention i was kind of a feminist back then. Now I think i might be able to tend and apreciate long hair.
12. I've always been interested in youth ministry. I'd love to help out with whatever churches I end up at.
13. I forgot to say I really want to visit ireland. That would be a kickashtray place to do a pilgrimage, too.
14. I really want to go to a Ren fair. in costume.
15. I want a Jeep, really badly. And I'd put obscure bands' stickers and spunky anti-Liberal quips and cheesy Jesus fish all over the back of it. I saw a neon green one for sale once and I was sad when Mama said no.
16. I'd love to be strong, physically.
17. I'd love to put out a literary magazines for and by high school students. So much emotion and poetry and prose flow through adolescence... how cool would it be if I could bottle it up and share it with their peers? It could be used in classrooms. Etc.
18. I'd like to find a pair of pants that fit me, for once. I'm interestingly proportioned.
19. I'd like to be a part of a theater troupe or major play. Just to be on a stage for a while, part of a crazy family, you know?
20. I'd like to master Rachmaninov's Etudes-Tableaux No 14 Op 39. i've been working on it since fall 2008. i almost got it, put it aside, came back, put it aside, forgot about it...I've never been able to get it to the point of being finished. I really want to be able to play it.
What do you wish for?
Hey I love this. I think are souls are aligned.
ReplyDeleteAnd hold out for a church-family. It will come, but it's not going to be full of perfect people, just screwed-up, mistake-making people who are desperately seeking God and trying to love like him and change the world like him.
i've always KNOWN they were!
ReplyDeleteand yeah, i'm definitely not asking for perfect people...just people wanting to change. i hope i'm willing, too.
"I want to be part of a community of Christians, not part of a church. Huge difference. I wonder if it can be made to happen? Or does it not happen when there's only a handful of people who agree with you?"
ReplyDeleteI think a community made up purely of Christians is an impossibility in this day and age for precisely the reason you mention. Unless you can prove it to everyone.