just a life update

life is crazy, good crazy.

1
dentist's assistant: "your face matches your shirt! (laughs like that was funny. it was a green shirt)

2
practicing the presence of God is not something that is easy, momentary, or passing. it is a delicate art of balancing purpose, priority, and humility. and cannot be achieved by anything other than realizing just how small a human actually is.
His arms are always around us. we just have to notice, stop fighting against them. then we can start being useful.

3
dodgeball + wisdom teeth removal + hyper brother = pain

4
when things start going terribly wrong spiritually (i.e., you discover your friends are fighting against some serious spiritual warfare, your family starts going insane, your schoolwork starts piling up) you know that you are on the right track. satan is trying to keep you away from the good that you are so obviously close to doing. trials = joy. although it took me three days to figure that out. slash, my whole life so far.

5
english at college with a psycho jewish lady officially rocks. so does the subject material, writing about survival. already knee-deep in virginia woolfe and journal entries. i live for this kind of thing.
negative side: i had to pull the God card on her on the first day (in-class, write essay about your personal definition of life and survival). i figured the sooner she knows, the better. we'll see what she thought...

6
blogging is easier than journaling. i have a journal, but i never write in it, and i have a journal that i share with somebody, but it's easy to write in that because we pretty much write letters to each other. so i like blogging. i guess i find words come more quickly when i know i have an audience.

7
i got my texting bill back. thank cheese it's unlimited.
1,746. in the past month-ish. the bill might be for just the past 2 weeks. either one is frightening.
it doesn't feel like it. i just find that all my girl friends communicate through texting. it doesn't distract me from school, and i don't do it a lot...it just starts adding up i guess. lol.
i still call people to talk about serious stuff, though. just a thing i have a problem with.

8
A friend said recently, "Being people's personal savior isn't your job."
Ouch.
I know whose job it is, too.
There's a fine line between pointing people back to God, and actually "playing Jesus."
Letting go of control is the hardest thing.

9
I purchased a pair of man pants at Target (tahr- ZHAY). They are red flannel, XL, and beautiful. They were three dollars.
Four days after I had bought them, I realized that the man pants had that strange hole in the frontal section that a lot of men's underwear does.
I had worn these pants in public, around friends, sat cross-legged in them.
Yeah.

10
I love green tea.