excited

Not much of anything has been going on....nothing tragic, sad, beautiful, melancholy, angry or extraordinary. Just summer. Camp and vbs is over. Still sleepy. Hanging out with friends in pools and in forests was nice too. I've got 26 days until my life takes a bizarre turn for what I think will be the better, and I am transplanted from comfy Metuchen into a lovely terror of new people, places, classes, ideas, work, enemies and food. I get happy chills just thinking about it. I've been stockpiling winter clothes and notebooks and air freshener in boxes in my basement. I'm a little obsessed with the countdown. I've been waiting for this since I knew what college was. So now I have a week or so more of work, then I go legit camping with the family in Maine (here, actually) and then to the CFC conference and then I leave the morning of the 25th! Which is after most everyone else leaves, annoying. But I'm still excited. Superdedooperdedooperly excited. And that's all that's really new.

of course i'll go to sleep!

i should be editing scripts.
i should be sleeping.
i should be reading my Bible.
i should be capitalizing my I's.
i should floss more.
i should be a better leader. sister. friend. daughter.

instead of being trapped by all of these "shoulds", I'm feeling dangerous...like what I do creates a ripple effect...like what I do is important...like what I do can't go unseen. that's scary.

so i should start making waves. connecting.
i should start writing again.
i should be...more. better. me. bigger. louder.
i should talk to God.

what should you be doing right now?